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The Lonely Lady Redux…

Twice in the past week, I arrived at work to the flashing of instant message windows, not the slightest bit work related.

One from each of the Lonely Ladies.

Lonely Lady Two was asking if I needed her daughter’s phone number again, despite the fact that I had told her no. I explained that the entire situation made me uncomfortable, and that I’d prefer to leave it alone (hat tip to Brad for helping me formulate the response). This of course didn’t dissuade her from prodding me more, but I’m sticking to my “leave me the fuck alone” guns.

Lonely Lady One was asking me if I had gone on a fun date. I responded that I hadn’t. This was all a ruse, to get me talking to her about the Mall Ninja.

The Mall Ninja is her ex boyfriend. From 1980. When they were 20 years old. They broke up for reasons that The Lonely Lady won’t really get into, I assume he left her for another woman or vice versa. I guess he wasn’t a Mall Ninja then, or at least hadn’t perfected his Mall Ninja technique. She got back in touch with him, for some reason. And went down there to see him. Here’s his story of what has happened since they broke up (as best as I can decipher from her crazy emails).

  • He moved to Texas and worked as a contractor.
  • He became a commercial pilot (small planes).
  • He then joined the Air Force (or the AF Reserve, he did not specify)
  • He flew “spy missions”. Nonspecific.
  • He then found out his wife was sleeping with his commanding officer so he resigned. (Didn’t know you could do this but whatever)
  • He then joined the Navy.
  • He then became a SEAL. (keep in mind he would have been like 26, minimum)
  • He then participated in the First Battle of Mogadishu (Black Hawk Down, meaning he’d have to be a member of Delta Force, the only SEALS involved in that conflict – He would have been 33 at the time)
  • He is selected to attend “spy school”.
  • After this, he was appointed to a nonspecific “diplomatic” mission, again doing “spy work”. Largely in Asia.
  • After this immensely impressive career, spanning three branches of service and what had to have been dozens of commendations, he leaves the military.
  • Bringing with him a resume that would literally guarantee him a position high in the hierarchy of any defense contractor in the world, he does what any sane man would do. He gets a dead end job at a Carmel, CA prison as a guard.
  • He then gets married to a Russian woman, with a child. (Whether or not the kid is his is not determined)

And she honestly seems to believe him. She goes down there to visit him, and it’s a veiled adultery play, neither one has the cojones to just get down to fucking, so they have to play the game for a while, and before anybody’s hoo haa gets in touch with a bajingo, the Russian Bridge catches on. She starts sending email to LL2, broken english, asking for pictures. LL2 goes through paroxysms of doubt and sadness, but eventually, she just can’t let all the “trust” go. I’m not sure what the “trust” is, because she won’t define it.

Eventually this whole mess turns back around to me. So she plies me about my exes, and whether or not I’d get back together with any of them. This wasn’t entirely unexpected, she had hinted at it before. She asked, and she asked, and eventually we came to this. I’m paraphrasing.

“It sounds like you want it.” – LL2
“All other things being equal, I wouldn’t turn it down.” – Aaron
“Have you asked her about it?” – LL2
“I wouldn’t put our friendship in that position. And even though she’s not married, there are always consequences.” – Aaron
“So why don’t you go back and be with her? Life is short.” – LL2
“It seems a lot longer when you’re living in a town you hate after having ruined your career while still not having a relationship you thought you came back for.” – Aaron
“You’re too practical, where is your sense of romance?” – LL2

Is this really how people reason? Is this how they live? They move from one opportunity to fuck to another, and damn the consequences? Turn off your brain, ignore the lies, there’s “trust” there.

On making comic book movies…

Are you sitting down? Are you ready? We’re gonna make a comic book movie. What? No, somebody already did that one. No. Not that one. No. Listen, shut the fuck up. No, we’re not doing that one. Stop it. Somebody gag him. There. Gag too tight? No? Perfect.

As I said, before I was so rudely interrupted. We’re gonna make a comic book movie. Stop grunting. Kick him in the balls. OK. Stop vomiting, the gag isn’t gonna move and you’re just gonna choke. Stop. Seriously just stop fidgeting. Pay attention, this is important. We’re gonna make a comic book movie. You aren’t seriously grunting another comic name, are you? OK, just stop. Think more edgy. No, that’s just gross. No, the Japanese are doing just fine there, thanks. No, edgy. OK, fine I’ll just tell you. It’s Mike Millar’s Wanted. Never heard of it? Perfect. OK. Here’s how we’re gonna do it.

See this guy right here? He’s a big fan of the series. He’s got no experience with screenwriting though so we’re gonna kill him for wasting our time. Yeah. Ew, no. Just, just get rid of the body. But this guy here. You see him? This guy… this guy is our boy. Yeah, him and this idiot twin attached to him. Yeah, they’ve got serious blockbusters under their belt. 2 Fast 2 Furious! And something else. Maybe like some porno thing. I’m not sure. But he’s got skills. And here’s how we’re gonna get this party started.

OK, Screenwriters, line up. Any of you ever heard of Wanted? No? Great. If I find out you’re lying so help me I’ll kill you all. OK. Take a look at this cover. Take a good hard look at it. You see it? You see how edgy it is? Perfect. Now we throw the book away. Yes, you heard me right, we just throw it away. Trust me, if you’d read it, you’d understand it’s better this way. We’re thinking Nobody McNobodyson as… I don’t even remember his name in the book. Something. Anyways, Angie Jolie plays The Tits and Morgan Freeman plays God or Destiny or something. Go, just go go go. Write.

You… stand up. Take that gag off him. You… start directing.

Steve Gillmor is a dribbling idiot

I know I’m not exactly breaking new ground around here on a daily basis, but I do try to keep things, if not brief, at least digestible on the run. I do this with a handful of techniques.

I don’t post when I have no idea what I’m talking about.

I don’t post when I’m really, really tired.

I don’t post when I have absolutely nothing new to say.

I don’t whinge on and on about the same small retarded point when I can start to tell it only makes sense to me.

This small handful of reasons is what separates me from Steve Gillmor. I’m not sure which is the better half of this page, the post itself, a meandering homage to “I have got my finger on something that is definitely not the pulse of the internet”, or the comments, which the author is patrolling with his “Delete comment” wand in full effect. Both Brad and I commented on the post, and were deleted about 40 seconds later, so I can only imagine how many other posts were deleted by this retard.

Apple’s iWin for iEverything iAllthetime

Every “nod your head after it works” tech-futurist retard on the planet is now writing a column about how Apple is going to rule the entire world, and I don’t want to miss out on this opportunity :

To quote Ross Rubin: “Apple has shown that it has learned from mistakes it made with the first Mac. Whereas early monochrome Macs were a tough sell for game developers, Apple has highlighted games as some of the most impressive early third-party applications for the iPhone and iPod touch.”

Yes, this is exactly true! Games literally and figuratively caused the computer revolution to take place. It has nothing to do with spreadsheets, business apps, computers to control machinery or any of that other pap. The color graphics of such computer giants as Amiga and Commodore were what catapulted them over the competition, leaving such command-line-black-and-white dinosaurs as Microsoft’s stillborn “DOS” operating system and the now nearly unhead of uglyware “Unix” as mere footnotes in history. As I write this on my AmigaOS 42.2 supercomputing laptop, I remember when the first Amiga was elected to Senate. Apple learned from this important lesson and quickly made the change to color screens (as soon as that pesky technology caught up) and from there it has been UNMITIGATED SUCCESS! The total victory started when they went to color and continued as they attempted time and time again to make a game console. Another big mistake righted when Apple finally started allowing the Internet on their computers, something which was not even AVAILABLE on their earliest computers, not even as an option! Disgusting! How else were people supposed to play World of Warcraft (another thing that didn’t ship with the early Macintosh, but would have been a really good idea in retrospect).

I’m off to configure my Commodore c1024 to optimize the solar array on my rooftop, while the Amiga that runs Wall Street finalizes some trades for me.

The Incredible Hulk

There has been a spate of gushing praise for Ang Lee’s fucking horrible Incredible Hulk movie recently, and I’m not so sure I get it. Are you just trying to indicate that people are stupid and the universally panned film was somehow brilliant? I’m here to straighten some of these delusions out.

No, he didn’t capture the tone of the original comics. No, he didn’t follow the source material more closely than this new movie. No, he didn’t generate a brilliant tension. No, he wasn’t being daring. He ignored every fucking iota of the canon storyline, even the brilliant bits, for a slow moving slog through shit. The effects meandered the full spectrum from sub-par to laughable. The entire thing smacked of someone trying to piece together a Hulk storyline from a prepared portfolio of clippings and bullet points, it had no soul, and the character moments were as real and vivid as the intro to low-budget porn. And that’s why it failed miserably in the box office, in the rentals, and moved from big screen to small screen to tiny plastic box to footnote in fucking history as quick as a wink.

On writer bullshit…

One of the big things that bugs me, and takes me out of a story is when characters don’t react like real human beings. It’s part of what bugged me about Indy 4, it’s what bugged me about the Star Wars prequels, it’s what bugs me about most of the stuff Doctorow has written (Little Brother being the notable exception). And it’s what is bugging me about this Accelerando by Charlie Stross.

Let’s give some story examples and contrast with what a real human being would do.

The Setup : In the near-future, a world of almost universal surveillance, crazy quasi-dominatrix but chaste IRS agent woman tracks down wealthy man, disables him, superglues his fingers together, puts him in some kind of isolation helmet, and then rapes him. She then superglues her vagina shut so she’s sure to get pregnant. She explains her plan to extort money with this child.

The Fallout : Crazy quasi-dominatrix has a child, and then uses that child to demand child support from wealthy man. Wealthy man has to hide from this litigious bitch, using only his savvy business and political smarts to escape.

How Shit Would Really Go Down : Recently raped man goes to police. Crazy quasi dominatrix is arrested. Child is either adopted, or becomes a ward of the state.

I mean, seriously.

The Setup : Rape daughter is on a deep-space vessel performing child labor for some reason. Crazy quasi-dominatrix joins a sect of Islam, so she can force her rape-daughter to have behavior modification software installed into her brain.

The Fallout : Rape Daughter checks out the rules of the sect, carefully exploring any loopholes she might use to cleverly escape this woeful situation, oh, this will be quite a legal pickle!

How Shit Would Really Go Down : Rape Daughter “My mom joined a sect of Islam so she can control me”
Other Girl “OH, how are you going to get out of this”
Rape Daughter “She’s on Earth and I’m in deep fucking space, this doesn’t matter.”
Other Girl “Oh, right, Lol, let’s go do more child labor”

Fucking seriously. I wish I were joking that this story is about a woman who works for the IRS becoming Muslim so she can keep her daughter away from the father she raped, in order to collect taxes.

This is two things I’ve tried to read by Charlie Stross and I’m not gonna cramp anything to read a third. He doesn’t write characters, he writes preposterous and somewhat boring logistical situations, and in order for these situations to evolve in a way he finds amusing, human nature must be ignored, inverted, or subverted.

Update on the Raleigh

So, I’ve been slowly acquiring parts and doing work over the long, long winter, and now that the sun has come out, I’ve raced to get this done. It looks pretty awesome, and aside from having a pretty worn out Sunrace (cheapass) cassette on it (gear skipping in 4th, 6th, and 7th gears), it rides pretty great.

I had to install a bottom bracket cable guide, because it used a screwball cable-to-derailleur-stop setup on the original derailleur. And while I could have stayed with that Suntour unit, I wanted to get a more modern front (went with a Shimano RSX, which is slick as hell).

The rear is a Nexave Rapid-Rise, which is a low-normal derailleur (first time I’ve played with one, doesn’t seem to have any negative consequences for me).

These cranks were the “center of the build” in all reality, I scored them for $50 on eBay with shipping. Never had a modern two piece crank before either.

The Brooks B67 Conquest or whatever it’s called is very comfortable.

Barend shifters and non-aero levers leave a lot of swoopy cable housing on the front end.

All in all, I’m happy with it. Sourcing a new cassette soon.

Dug from Ancient Dust…

From the deep archives of Shan the cock-sure and always angry words of the me of ten years ago.

Coherency and my slavery to the fiduciary system do not mix.

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But for now, I’ll be killing puppies with my hands and trying to make the man on the other end of my phone feel the psychopathia, in the hopes that he’ll just hang the fuck up and get his ass out of the DSL “revolution” for good.

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The Batmobile pops… “Hmmm, popping, that’s an odd noise for an engine to make” thinks the pilot… And then it begins to rain… “Hmmm, raining, that’s an odd thing for it to be doing, especially because it’s only on my hood, and my windshield, and no one else seems to be getting wet…

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Blah blah blah, He sits atop the beast, as it pisses and gurgles. Finally deciding it’s safe, he opens the radiator to find — STEAM! LOTS OF IT! ALL KINDS! And that his Thermostat is doing DICK! And that his overflow valve is doing DICK!

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And if nothing, he’s tenatious as all hell, willing to beat this horse until dead, and then until a fine horsey-paste… I am, to say the least, concerned.

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Not optimal, but where are you going to find a baseball stadium full of fans and a hot tub full of warm chocolate pudding that will let you do wicked things in it for the rest of all eternity? That’s what I thought.

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Keep this in mind… How many days a year do you wear underwear? Isn’t that a lot? Yeah. I don’t have that problem.

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Wasn’t that depressing? I’m a morbid motherfucker.

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I am number 1 in Q… That means anything. That means it could be 10 minutes. It could be an hour. Number 4 in Q. I wish I were number 4 in Q. That guarantees enough time to go take a break, wash your hair, bake a cake, and manually masturbate chimpanzees for scientific experiments.

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Love is very complex. It’s very intricate. It’s like a spiderweb, beautiful, delicate.

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So, ZenBoy ends up all excited and turgid and acting a lot like a child with ADHD… And then sleep hits him like a ton of bricks, and he gets his vaseline and takes care of “some business” and passes out.

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Love makes fools of us all.

But it makes some of us downright retarded.

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Yesterday afternoon, I had a nega-catharsis. The sudden overwhelming feeling that “No, this is NOT alright”

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I’ll chain him to the couch, and tape his eyes open, and make him watch The Thong Song video while I perform oral sex on him for hours on end.

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I’ll update this more later today, I’m fomenting. Fomenting, people. Let me do it.

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Tucson… A veritable cross between Phoenix and some under funded mexican prison. Appropriate, as it is equidistant from either, the bastard love child of the border towns and southwestern culture. That place where the not-quite outlaws of the Wild West said “Well, we were aimin’ for Mexico, but we figger dis here’s far enough…” and settled in.

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She could make an anal lavage of magma and mentholatum deep heating rub fun.

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I do not DO churches. I don’t go near the places. I would sooner walk into a room full of rabid kittens with a colon full of tuna and catnip on my nipples screaming “Chow TIME!” than see… pews… crosses…

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Especially early in the morning. I’m not even over my “genocide for those who created alarm clocks and schedules” anger, and suddenly I’m thrown into that place… Gah… It was like capping off a beautiful 9 course meal of everything you’ve ever liked eating, ever, with a small plate of chocolate covered cat shit and a glass of stale urine.

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Well, this was just gonna be a short “Fuck you, I have more interesting things to do than update this page, I feed!” sort of post.

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“Who broke open the Baby Jesus’s rattle to see the stars inside?”, and a voice came from me, a malevolent, raspy voice, “Bilbo Baggins”…

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Fargor! is it better in any regard? N6(netscape)?

Spooky not really

Spooky it’s kinda shitty

Spooky like neoplanet

Spooky but more gay

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You know, masturbation. I did a lot of it. I was essentially trying to squeeze the streptococcus out of my body that way. Mostly because it was more fun than piercing and sqeezing my lymph nodes.

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THe original idea was for getting a roommate to leave or breaking up with a significant other. It was to run around the house, buck naked, with an erection (or a strap on, for you ladies) with an axe in one hand and keep saying, quietly, “This is gonna be soooo sweet.”

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The truth is the _only_ thing. NO regrets. No fears. No lies. Just the truth.

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Harley cronic mastabaters unite

I’m not going to learn _that_ secret handshake.

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This is a bunch of hippie crap. I’m gonna go watch TV.

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And I’m going to take him into the first “training session”… and I’m going to shove a jalapeno juice covered dildo in his ass and my cock down his throat and scream “Yeeeeehaw! You’s my bitch now” and make whooping and hollering noises like a drunken hick.

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Then at the end, when he’s begging for death… I’m going to break out the 15″ dildo and wrap my cock in a mixture of tainted pork and peanut butter. And I’m going to whisper in his ear… “At least I contacted you. You never contacted me.”

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There’s bunnies on my Add an Entry button. There is a bunny. Just one. Just it’s head. I envision the back of that gif and I see the blood and gore dripping down the back of the “Add Entry” sign. My imagination is like that.

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some would say I needed help. But then again… Some people can SUCK MY DICK!

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I’m curious, why is it that using your [technical term], there have to be more than 4 [Choo choo trains] going to get the throughput up to [standard thingie]? Is your thoughput channelized on the [Magic Carpet]?

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I have taken Mr Bystander’s question under advisement, and as soon as I can get my grandmother to translate the bits other than what I already understand (I don’t see a question in there, but then again, I’m a moron)… I will get back to him, personally, at his house. Perhaps while he sleeps.

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I can’t believe I wrote a dick sucking apology that well in the amount of time I did it. My last job really left an impression on me.

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ZenZenZen… I’m like a hemi-criminal. The diet pepsi of criminal. Just one calorie Not evil enough.

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I slept on a bench outside the mall when my shifts were only 6 hours apart. It didn’t make sense to do the 30 minute drive/2 hour bike ride home and then back when I could look homeless RIGHT THERE!

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I’m sorry if it didn’t make sense, or didn’t live up to your expectations. But what you have to keep in mind… is that you had expectations to begin with. And that is why you’re chronically dissapointed.

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So, there I was, thinking about expanding my new cubicle, maybe taping the flaps up, so it’ll be twice as tall.

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The bitterness and hatred begin fomenting… and me without my 12 gauge.

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Heh… it’s really no wonder I have visions of dropping down on goths in alleyways and saying “I’m a jock! Thanks a lot! You people drove me to this! You drove me to this banality!” and beating the shit out of them with sporting

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Anyways, I better go. Before I kill again.

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The soundtrack of my life sounds like Stevie Ray Vaughn doing an amazing fusion solo with John Coltrane, and the entire piece is orchestrated by the Ramones. While they all take turns giving me a rimjob… some people say I’m sick…

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Asiatic blood pumps through my veins, and apparently actively combats facial hair growth, a LOT.

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“Tis better to have loved and left than to have spent a day talking to your ex.”

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“Do you want this! Do you want both these inches!?”

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ZenZenZen

– It’s what’s for dinner!

Acting Old Fashioned…

I try to be polite – In person. Despite what you might read here, I am not a phlegmatic compulsive venom machine when at work. So it’s not terribly surprising that I get a lot of points of view applied to me by coworkers. For some I’m an upright Republican. For others I’m a spiritual Christian. For some I am a closeted homosexual. For yet others I’m a slightly racist homophobe. But thanks to my unwillingness to rise to the bait and actually share a genuine opinion, every job leaves me with a trail of somewhat lonely older women who think that we are close, close friends.

Every now and again, one of these women will bemoan the woe of the life they imagine I have, and proclaim that they have a solution. One indicated that it would be to watch the television program Smallville. One suggested I quit my job and bum around europe. The list of these solutions to my woe take on sort of a fevered pitch the longer I allow the illusion of closeness.

This time, the entire mess has coagulated into a) my peripheral involvement in a weirder than average love triangle that involves a Mall Ninja Grade 1 and b) well…. it’s better if I explain it.

I came in to work last week. There were two pictures on my desk, stuffed into my keyboard. And a tiny post it note with the words “What do you think? I’ll be back.” written on it. I assumed that this was someone putting something on the wrong desk. Asked around if anyone had seen who put them there, and then discarded it. One of the lonely ladies walks up and asks… “Well? What do you think?” After stammering a bit, I realized what this was. This was a fucking setup. With her daughter.

I muttered some niceties, and endured a medium-longish… rant is too harsh, but let’s call it a harangue… about her daughter’s husband, and something about a walk out before Christmas three years ago. The takeaways from this speech were that there were two kids, and that the daughter “babysat”. I couldn’t really place her age from the pictures, but I was told to “think about it”. From the second lonely lady, I gained this additional information. The kids are 8 and 10.

I was already excited by this news. A divorcee with two school aged kids and no job? Sign me the fuck up! But in the interest of politeness, I decided it would be best to just give my phone number to her and let it play.

So, a couple days later, I notice a call on my cell phone, and a voicemail. I checked it, expecting a sort of awkward intro, and instead I heard… Well. The Lonely Lady. I will transcribe below to the best of my memory.

“Hi, Aaron. I gave your phone number to my daughter and she told me ‘Mother, I am not going to call some man.’ She’s being a little old fashioned about this, so here’s her number go ahead and give her a call.”

Since I had been having such a killer fucking week already, I chose to again, be polite, and just not call anyone. Because if I did, I would not have been polite at all. A mother of two school aged kids living off of, presumably, alimony and child support? Who is “old fashioned” in her ideas of the interaction between men and women? Listen. If I wanted to fuck someone from my grandma’s generation, I would start trolling for grannies on Craigslist.

So I’ve stopped being polite. I’m not going to let people apply their idiotic theories of who I am to me. I’m going to tell them the mother fucking truth. I will show them my teeth.